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Just For the Hell of it

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 17:25:39 GMT

dunno if anybody is gonna read this but what the hell. i'll post it anyway.

Have you ever turned down someone that you've liked?
yes, he had a girlfriend and i had a boyfriend plus we worked together. bad news all around.

What do you cough on more, your hand or your elbow?
elbow. it prevents further spreading of germs. if you cough on ur hand you'll touch something and pass on the germs to someone else.

Do you like sneezing?
not really

Are you good at small talk?
yes but it's annoying i prefer deep conversation.

Which do you think is a gesture of true love: fighting for somebody or letting them go?
depends on the situation. if ur partner truly isn't happy and there isn't anything you can do about it then you should let them go find happiness if you truly love them. but if your partner isn't happy and there is something you can do you should fight.

When was the last time you were at a loss of what to do?

so far all this week. still wondering what to do as we speak...or blog rather.

Have you given somebody more second chances than you can count?
hell yeah

Are you more comfortable with guys or girls?
both

Who was the last person to surprise you by being there for you when you needed it?
Gary (and i'm not just saying that because he put my name for this question he really is a wonderful caring friend)

Do you use words like "love" and "hate" a lot?
i used love a lot but not hate

The last time you let someone go, was it to make yourself happy or them?
myself

When you were little, did you ever go in cardboard boxes and pretend that they were castles?
nope. gary said he played in closets and so did i. i was trying to find narnia.

Where's the best seat in the movie theater?
the back, middle of the row.

Do you have more subscribers or subscriptions?
subscriptions probably. i didn't check.

What do you do more: look up, look ahead, look back, or look down?
i should look ahead i spend a lot of time looking back

Do you remember the show Allegra's Window?
omg yeah i remember allegra's window! that was nick jr at it's best man!

How was elementary school?
easiest time of my school goin years

Did you ever think that you would've ended up here?
i didn't plan it but i'm not supprised really

In general, would you rather watch a movie or a television show?
movie...tv bores me too often

What did you go on more: the swings or the slides?
swings

Do you like the sound of a car driving over pebbles?
erm i don't feel any particular way about it.

If you had to choose, would you have rather been a teenager in the 90's or 80's?
i would say 80s becaues that was the time that my idol MJ was on top of the world but it was such a shitty fashion decade and nothing important really went on. So i'll say 90s

Who was the last guy that held the door open for you?
this morning as i was walking into work

Have your friends ever convinced you to go out with someone you didn't even like?
yes in 8th

Do your good memories outweigh the bad?
yes

What does the color yellow make you think of?
it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside

On a typical day/night, what do you have a harder time with: falling asleep, staying asleep, or waking up?
definitley waking up

Is it hard for you to imagine yourself as an adult?
too late for imagining...i am one.

Have you ever used a straw to put butter in your theater popcorn?
no

Do you think that in the Disney movie, Beast looked better cursed than he did human?
i read an erotic novel that said the beast was better in bed. lmao!

Won't Be Posting Anymore

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 16:32:36 GMT

Welp i finally decided on a specific subject to blog on. I'm always complaining about how I wanna make money off of doing something creative. Then it finally hit me. Blog about things that are creative Music, Art, Books, Fashion, TV and all that good stuff. I purposely left out movies cuz as you already know I already have a movie blog. So whatever personal stuff i feel like talkin about will be on the mzpinkie blog from now on since I don't think i feel like keeping up with 4 blogs. I'll still be on to comment on other peoples blogs tho just don't look here for posts unless i'm linking to my blogspot blogs. anyways my first post is up. it's not much just something so my blog won't be blank for the weekend. scheduled my first real post to show up on moday tho. welp that's about it. laterz ppl.

YAY GARY I LOVE SURVEYS! lol

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 16:14:48 GMT

01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey!

hmmmm lemme think....no (insert sarcasm here)

[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?

nope

[03] Abortion: for or against it?

for it but i tend to get annoyed when women have abortions towards the end of their second trimester. like seriously chick you sat on it for 5 months and now you decided you don't want it? the thing has arms and legs now man!

[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?

ok contrary to popular american belief the world doens't revolve around america. our current president is a huge failure and the rest of world (well weastern society at least) is doing just fine. besides it's not like other countries haven't had female heads of state. we're just behind the times. so my answer is no.

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?

no.... death is too easy of a punishment. especially if you don't believe in hell.

[06] Do you think Marijuana should be legalized?

yes....it isn't legal in amsterdam because they're sooo liberal it's because you can't put regulations on it if it's illegal. you can't get rid of it people are gonna do it anyway (and yes i know people can say the same about murder and rape and other things that are illegal but those are different matters) so make it legal so it can at least be controlled.

[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?

to each his own man. if u feel like u wanna wait that's ur biz. i didn't

[08] Do you believe in God?

yeah but bill maher would call me stupid for believing in god.

[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?

yeah you can't defend separation of church and state and defend keeping gay marriage illegal. what good reason do you have to keep it illegal besides religion?

[10] Do you think its wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?

i don't really care. i'm a first generation american born to immigrants. i mean they were legal but still i dunno i'm just not angry at the fact that people wanna come here. i'm actually surprised. if i were from a 3rd world country i'd totally go to europe.

[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?

why am i making the choice for this 12 year old girl? the choice is hers no mine. if she was mature enough to have sex then she's mature enough to decide for herself what she wants to do.

[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?

eh what difference would it make if they legalized it? nobody waits till the age of 21 anyway. when i turned 21 all i cared about was that i didn't have to get people to buy the liquor for me anymore. and u know what i sitll haven't been to a liquor store since my 21st birthday and i'm almost 22.

[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?

yup. i think they should quit bleeding out our damn military resources for this pointless war. because if we get attacked by a real threat we'd be in freakin serious trouble cuz all our damn troops are dying in iraq.

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal do you agree?

yes if life sucks bad enough that you feel death is the only escape you should have enough balls to do it yourself instead of turning somebody else into a murderer. (yes i'm joking don't take me literally...but i do i think it should be illegal)

[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?

i wouldn't rule it out. but i think it should be a last resort. if you can get ur child to behave without it. then don't bother.

[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?

Baraka (i have this wierd habbit of smushing his name into one word.)

[18] Do you think Obama will be killed?

i dunno.

[19] Should child predators be forced to wear signs identifying themselves?

if you keep expecting somebody to do something then guess what....they're gonna do it. forcing them to wear a sign is like begging them to repeat the crime.

[20] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?

i don't care if they judge me. but i don't like judgemental people so don't expect me to be nice to you if u d judge me.

[21] Do you think the voting age should be lowered?

i don't think the problem is age. i think the problem is intelligence. i think people should pass an iq test before they vote.

Are you an extrovert or an introvert? Are you okay with that or would you rather be the other?

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 17:46:50 GMT

definitley a bona fide introvert and yes i'm fine with that because if i don't take regular breaks from people i'll kill one of em.

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

Anyways why is it that when people see that I blog they always look at me like I'm crazy or call me a geek or something? This one guy even spits out some stupid rap line that went something like I'm not into internet chat rooms and bloggers i'm more into guns and robbers. or some stupid shit like that. like seriously do they think because i'm black like them that i have to be ghetto like them too? is it so hard to believe that someone that shares their same skin tone can do something intelligent on the internet instead of living on myspace? like seriously man this is giving me flashacks of when I was in jhs and they used to call me the white girl because i didn't talk like fuckin hood rat. Well i'm not gonna fuckin apologize because I speak with proper grammer. I'm not gonna dumb myself down because being smart aint keeping it hood. I have a newsflash bitches! I'm not hood! I never lived in no damn projects. I don't hear gunshots out my window every night. I never been robbed or jumped. I actually leave brooklyn every once in a while. I actually got good grades in school. I hang out with white people. I listen to "white music". And guess what bitches. It don't make me any less black. I know my history just as well if not better than all of you igonarant bastards. Me using the word ignorant reminds me of something now. I wish people would listen to more jayz. He's actually an intelligent dude. And I think he knows how i feel. I'm gonna go blast this song now. (click)

YAY IT'S MY DAY OFF!!

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 17:53:54 GMT

It got off to a shitty start because my asthma pump ran out in the middle of the night. I swear it's like a psychological thing with that cuz i'm fine all day when i know I have puffs left and then when it runs out thats when it acts up. It's like my mind playing with my body. So i try to think thoughts of healthy breathing but it just didn't work. So I had to get up at 4am and run to the 24 hour cvs (which is funny cuz i was talkin about 24 hour cvs with gary before i went to sleep) and get a box of primatene mist to hold me until i can get a real asthma pump. It wasn't raining yet when I left but I got caught in the storm without an umbrella when I get back. From now on I'll always have a back up pump. Anyways after I dried off warmed up and went back to bed things were better. I love days off. When you work full time you appreciate lazy days at home a lot more. I got some blog posts done. I'm taking a more active role in what goes on on cinephilia (like being there for editing sessions and posting movie news on the cinephilia twitter). By the way we found a better way to record that looks more professional so we're gonna post the rest of the ok videos and then start with the rest of the bigger better videos. I wish the weather weren't so shitty. But anyway later I'm gonna go to my sisters. We have plans for watching the debate and eating chinese. Oh and burying my face in fashion mags and subscribing to this fashion blog helped a lot. I feel like I can dress again. yay!

Another Side Affect of Full Time Work

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 16:17:40 GMT

I fell off my fashion game man. I don't dress up to go to work for two reasons. Well 3 reasons actually.

I just wanna be comfortable
Theres nobody at work worth dressing up for
I don't want fools trying to hit on me while I'm working

Since I spend 35 hours out of the week not dressing up I kinda feel like I forgot how to dress up. I've just been feeling pretty unglamorous lately. So tired to out together a nice outfit on sunday and go out for no reason just to see if I still had it. I kinda fell out of the loop in terms of whats in style and what isn't. Then again I've always sucked when it comes to dressing in fall weather now that I think about it. Winter you're all bundled up so you just have to focus on pants and jackets and in the spring and summer you're not wearing much clothes anyway so it's not hard to make sure it's coordinated. Eh I'm gonna shut up now I sound way too superficial. I'm gonna go bury my face in a fashion mag.

At It Again

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 15:33:39 GMT

She's buggin me about college again. I sat down and thought about applying just to say I did. I looks at the website and get dizzy. I know it's the practical and sensible thing to do. But I just don't want to. It makes no sense going back if I'm being forced. It won't accomplish anything. I'll just go back to ditching class and withdrawin before I fail like I always do. I have to do something I'm passionate about. College makes no sense if you don't know what you're gonna do with the degree afterward which is the whole reason I dropped out in the first place. I'm counting the days till my transfer goes through so I won't have to deal with this. Maybe she'll get tired of wasting her breath.

I just looked up my tanscript. I never looked at my last semester grades. I got an A and had no clue all this time. Is that a sign? I have 57 credits which is a little more than half of what I need. The other 40 something some odd credits (don't even know if my math is right) are kind of taunting me now. But I still feel dizzy. Core classes I never took, papers I don't miss, reading assignments and all that jazz. I don't wanna go through all that for no reason. Especially since I'm working full time it's gonna take a considerable amount of time to finish up. I'd have to be really driven. And I'm not. Not for this. I already decided what I wanted in life and it doesn't require a degree. If I go back it would only be so I'm not the only person in my circle of friends without the degree (which I already know i'm not the only person I just want to be counted with the more accompished bunch). Once again it defeats the purpose cuz once i have the degree then what? I throw myself a party and go back to doing what I was gonna do anyway. Open my health food store.

I HAVE HIGH CHOLESTEROL

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 16:36:39 GMT

I dunno how the hell this happened. My friends don't know how the hell this happened. I'm always giving people tips on how to eat healthy. I'm the one who's been making an effort to excercise regularly since i've been in elementary school. At first I was just relieved but now I really wanna just march back to the drs office and make them test me again. I haven't eaten anything that people my age don't normally eat. If anything i've been more health conscious that people my age normally are and i'm the one that gets high cholesterol? that makes no sense! i have six months to get it down then they test me again. i have no doubt that i'll be fine cuz i'm only just above the line but still this is wierd. it runs in my family but my mom and grandma didn't have to deal with it until they were in their late 30s early 40s. i'm only 20 freakin 1. Ugh I guess it's a blessing in disguise tho. I gained weight recently and with my new diet it will automatically go right back down. now i have extra incentive to go on the diet and excercise plan i was gonna be on anyway. i'll be happy when beach season comes back around.

IT'S THE PROFESSOR!!!

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 17:20:10 GMT

Theres a boy that comes into the library regularly. He's like in his late teens or early 20s. He always tells these outrageous stories about out this professor he works for. He never calls this professor but his name he just always says the professor. If he needs help getting a book he'd always say it's not for him it's for the professor. And when he checks out his books he always tells crazy stories about places he's traveled and how he always runs into soccer hooligans no matter where he goes. And him and the professor are always getting in to crazy adventures with these soccer hooligans. First it was london, then africa, then when the olympics rolled around then he said him and the professor had ran into the soccer hooligans in beijing. He reminds me of Don Juan Demarco (not the real one...who last name isn't even DeMarco anyway... the Johnny Depp character). His life sucked so he made up a fantasy life in which he is Don Juan and he has has sex with over 1500 women. This kid definitley reminds me of Don Juan. I envy him. I wish I could just make up a fantasy life and believe in it enough to tell people about it and almost convince them it's real. I used to write stories about how I wish life could be but I stopped. Perhaps I should start again and hope that maybe one day life could imitate art. It's actually not so far fetched. My relationships do tend to turn out how I used to write them in my stories. Which was a blessing and a curse. The lovers always ended up together in the end but they had to go through hell and high water to get there. If I do start writing my fantasies in novel form again. I'll make it so the protagonist gets everything easily lol.

The Only Opinion that Matters is Mine

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 17:07:39 GMT

I''ve learned a valuable lesson over the last few weeks. I just can't please everybody. I try to help my mom around the house and she still finds something to complain about. I try to be a good hard worker my boss still finds something to bitch about. My sister locks me out of the house then gets mad at me for getting mad at her. I tell my co worker that constantly bugs me about going back to college that I'm looking into finishing online and she isn't satisfied with that (please as if it's her life or something). I bend over backwards not because I'm trying to please everybody I just want them to quit complaining about me. But now I realized I should let them talk and just ignore it. They're gonna talk anyway. I can't please these bastards no matter what I do. At least if I do what I want I'll be pleasing me. I realize I do this because I don't like hearing criticism but I'm gonna have to deal with it anyway. So from now in when it comes to my life the only opinion I'll consider relevent is mine. It will be a lot easier that way.